A TIP FOR TODAY FROM ALISON WILLCOCKS.

"If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was. We do not possess anything in this world, least of all other people. We only imagine that we do. Our friends, our lovers, our spouses, even our children are not ours; they belong only to themselves. Possessive and controlling friendships and relationships can be as harmful as neglect."

HK.

While I was in Asia back in March this year, I wrote my thoughts and impression in a sort of "diary". The big majority was nonsense writing but I want to let him know what I really felt when I was in Hong Kong. This is an extract from that day:

"In Hong Kong I could feel you in every corner. It was a weird feeling to know that I ended up in the same place you lived few years ago. During the night, I suddenly felt like crying. It was a feeling I never experienced before: Tears of Happiness. In that very moment I realised that even though the years passed by, you are still very deep in me. I know I should let it go and call it history but no matter how hard I try, memories seem to come with me everywhere I go."

Hong Kong Bay on the 27th of March 2010.

IT'S BEGINNING TO GET TO ME.

Sometimes I have the impression that I'm going to explode into million pieces. That's when I take a look at my right wrist and repeat to myself that I have to be strong and keep on going.

And while I'm still looking for something purer than the water, for the first time there are no tears in sight.

GIRL CRUSH.

I fell in love with Maryna Lynchuk few minutes after seeing these pictures in the 2010 H&M Winter Catalogue. Can somebody be any sexier?

Isn't she stunning?

MAY BANK HOLIDAY.

It seems that it has become a ritual calling sick for the May Bank Holiday. I'm watching him sleeping quietly in my bed while I'm writing these lines. I'm scared. He knows and understands all the shit Ive gone through, cause he suffered the same diseases when he was just a kid. That caught me as a surprise. You never know when you are going to meet the next peson that turns your inner world upside down.

It seems that the same story happens to me over and over: once I decide to leave everything behind and move on, I find a person who seems to like me as much as I do. Hate that feeling but as I usually say to myself, The Show Must Go On.

FINAL COUNTDOWN.

This is the moment to take decisions. Decisions which will affect not only my present but also my future. The hardest part has already been done and my family agreed with that. They let me go although I think they are still doubtful about it. There has been so many times Ive been saying the same without doing anything, that I think that nowadays they take for granted that I will be remaining in "The Bubble" forever.

The Asia trip opened my eyes in such a way that everything is different since the day I came back. For the first time, I know where my future is and I know what I want to do. I have to admit that the change scares me to death but new challenges are needed in my life asap.

There is still thousands of questions popping into my head every now and then about the concrete place and dates. What is a fact nowadays, it is that I will be starting the TEFL course on May. As soon as I am done with that, I will start looking for an overseas place to crash for a while. Any suggestion?.

SIMPLY DAVE.

The fact is, I've obviously always felt more strongly than you
and I just had to get that through my thick skull
and move on.