OUTFIT FOR THE 22ND TO THE 29TH OF JULY.

Ibiza is waiting and this will be my outfit for the whole week.

TO WED OR NOT TO WED.

I'm literally going crazy looking for the perfect Wedding Dress. Don't freak out, I'm not getting married yet but my good friend Itziar is apparently ready to tie the knot on the 31st July this year in Bilbao. God, it seems that it was yesterday when we were couple of kids spending their summer holidays in Laredo and now she is engaged. It seems surreal but at the same time I'm extremely happy for her.

When she first told me I totally freaked out but, after meeting her for dinner back in December when I was at home, I kind of understand that it was the correct thing to do. She has always been the clear example of "follow the steps" girl: First it came dating the same guy for about 10 years, 3 years ago they bought the dog in common, a year later they invested in their love nest, now the wedding and they are already thinking about kids in the near future.

That is probably one of the reasons why I run away from that society so long time ago. I have always had serious issues accepting rules. I enjoy going with the flow and taking everything as it comes. But now the question remains: Which is the correct position regarding this issue? To wed or not to wed?.

A TIP FOR TODAY FROM ALISON WILLCOCKS.

"If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was. We do not possess anything in this world, least of all other people. We only imagine that we do. Our friends, our lovers, our spouses, even our children are not ours; they belong only to themselves. Possessive and controlling friendships and relationships can be as harmful as neglect."

HK.

While I was in Asia back in March this year, I wrote my thoughts and impression in a sort of "diary". The big majority was nonsense writing but I want to let him know what I really felt when I was in Hong Kong. This is an extract from that day:

"In Hong Kong I could feel you in every corner. It was a weird feeling to know that I ended up in the same place you lived few years ago. During the night, I suddenly felt like crying. It was a feeling I never experienced before: Tears of Happiness. In that very moment I realised that even though the years passed by, you are still very deep in me. I know I should let it go and call it history but no matter how hard I try, memories seem to come with me everywhere I go."

Hong Kong Bay on the 27th of March 2010.

IT'S BEGINNING TO GET TO ME.

Sometimes I have the impression that I'm going to explode into million pieces. That's when I take a look at my right wrist and repeat to myself that I have to be strong and keep on going.

And while I'm still looking for something purer than the water, for the first time there are no tears in sight.

GIRL CRUSH.

I fell in love with Maryna Lynchuk few minutes after seeing these pictures in the 2010 H&M Winter Catalogue. Can somebody be any sexier?

Isn't she stunning?

MAY BANK HOLIDAY.

It seems that it has become a ritual calling sick for the May Bank Holiday. I'm watching him sleeping quietly in my bed while I'm writing these lines. I'm scared. He knows and understands all the shit Ive gone through, cause he suffered the same diseases when he was just a kid. That caught me as a surprise. You never know when you are going to meet the next peson that turns your inner world upside down.

It seems that the same story happens to me over and over: once I decide to leave everything behind and move on, I find a person who seems to like me as much as I do. Hate that feeling but as I usually say to myself, The Show Must Go On.