Overall, the unpaid leave has been weird. It has been almost three weeks since I arrived and now it is time to go back to reality. Anyway and for the very first time in 6 years, I do not want to leave. At home everything is much easier but then again: I don't like easy things, do I?.
I feel a total mess nowadays. I have been thinking over and over what to do once I leave Cork and I got to the conclusion that the "Asian Adventure" scares me to death. Will I be courageous enough in the end to pack my things and leave for good?.
One thing is for sure, Cork is not good anymore and it doesn't have anything new to offer me. It was OK once I arrived and started living my first experiences abroad but 6 years are more than enough. I cant go on lying to myself, I'm not 22 anymore!. What was funny back in the time, the people I first met, the places where I used to hung around when I first came, they are not the same anymore. People change and so have I. I'm more mature and although sometimes I behave like the same spoilt child I used to be, I grew up not only physically but also mentally.