ABSOLUTE QUEEN.

How great is to wake up suddenly at 4.30 a.m on a Saturday morning? Thank God, as soon as I opened my eyes, I could read on my BlackBerry one of C's sweet texts that he sent me little bit after midnight. Bored as I was, and not being able to fall asleep again, I started web shopping -worst thing to do when you are not able to get back to sleep-. I hate PayPal right now for authorising my last transaction. Well, let me introduce you to my last purchase. A pure guilty pleasure...

Black Suede Studded glam rock Waist Belt.

THANK GOD MY KARMA IS BACK.

February has been a pretty weird month so far. I have been refused twice by two different guys, M sent me the sweetest email ever from Denmark, R apparently wants to take me out on a "proper date" and C showed me that he is not that superficial and carefree because he actually cares about me a little bit. Everything came all of a sudden, out of nowhere, that's why I'm still in recovering process.

I really do not know where all this will lead me. Since yesterday night my head is full of thoughts that I can not put into words or actions. One thing is for sure, I will try to keep myself aside and just let things work on their own. I spent so much time worrying about these sort of things that, whatever it happens from now onwards, I just want to remain true to myself the whole time.

BRILLIANCE OF THE SEAS.

Holidays for the first quarter: Booked.

Destiny: Dubai & India.

Duration of the adventure: 15 days.

So many things to do before embarking on the cruise this time. Crazy forms that I need to fill in to get the visa from the Indian Embassy. I'm really looking forward for this more than deserved vacation. The only plan so far is hitting Amsterdam on the 8th of April to spend the whole day visiting The Van Gogh's Museum and doing last minute shopping. Everything so I can sleep like a baby in my 7 hours flight to Dubai. I want to feel fresh once I arrive there in order to live the experience to the maximum -I hate having jet lag as you can see :)-.

HEART ISSUES.

When did I become so rational? How the hell did I manage to put all my feelings aside and turned into this “mechanical” human being? I cant afford suffering anymore. Crying so such all these last years has provided me with a torn and dry heart.

LETTING HIM GO.

HOWS IT GOING?.

I have been feeling dizzy for almost a month now . Taking so many antibiotics due to this annoying tonsillitis is not helping me in any way. Probably, that's the reason why, I decided to surrender myself to an Italian. I didn't ask him for that much back: honesty will be the "key word" this time, mainly because I refuse to be somebody´s second dish or option. In fact, I was never good as a guest star :)!.

It scares me to death to be in this position. I don't want to feel vulnerable again. And it is not that I have huge feelings towards his persona yet, but I found myself thinking about it too way too much lately. But for the first time, I decide to relax myself and simply go with the flow.

Nobody knew, when I first came, where this whole experience would take me and I'm definitely not going to surrender myself at this stage.

FROM DAY TO NIGHT BY KATE MOSS.